Just What I Needed to Hear

I saw this on facebook and she put perfectly into words how I feel as a Mom at this stage of life.  I love the answer she received from Heavenly Father and I hope to change the way I view my situation and my children.

https://soundcloud.com/mormon-channel/strengthening-the-home

In a way I received a similar answer recently.  Tim found out that he is going to be furloughed at work with a 20% paycut for 22 weeks so I began looking for a part time job (I told Tim I'd rather get a part time job than have him get one because I needed a break from the Mom routine and the house and constant needs of my children, and that would only get worse if he was gone more).  I'd been searching and searching and applying, just to be turned down or never hear back from people.  I was searching for something to do outside of the home that would make me feel like a person again and help us get through the furlough.

While I was at church I was overwhelmed with stress, thinking about jobs, when I had the thought, "Why are you looking for a job when you aren't even doing the job you already have as a Mom?"  I then had the thought that I should stop looking for a job, and I felt a huge feeling of relief and peace.  I do need to do better for my kids.  Like the woman in the sound clip said, "Teach your children. They are right there."  I also think of the quote "No other success can compensate for failure in the home."  I need to stop looking outside of my role as a Mom for fulfillment and stop feeling held back by my kids.  Instead I need to focus on what I do for and with them as fulfillment.

I know I'm not the best Mom, but I'm not the worst Mom either.  I just want and need to improve.  Registering Gracie for Kindergarten has also opened my eyes to the fact that I really don't have much time left to start enjoying this sweet little toddler and baby stage because they really do grow up too fast.